So, yeah.
You go to work everyday, dreading it.
While at work, you find yourself crying, at least once a week.
After 2 weeks vacation, you head back to work and the second day back, you wonder if you can call in sick without getting fired.
You know that continually bitching about the situation is not at all helpful, so you keep it all inside.
You have your resume out on the interwebs on every. single. job-related website you can find, but don’t have any bites yet.
You have applied for no less than 25 new positions, internally, and have heard ABSO-PHUCKING-LUTELY nothing on any of them. Yet they claim that they are Pro-Employee and help employees with career development. AND! If they treat actual employees this way, how do they treat potential employees?? (Go ahead and ponder. I’ll wait.)
You are well aware that the job market blows right now, so you should be thankful you even have a job.
You know that you are NOT what you do, but you are so desperately unhappy at your job that you don’t know which way to turn.
You know that changing jobs will not necessarily, nor magically, improve your happiness. But you want to try because staying here won’t help it either.
You know that you choose your happiness but you can’t find even that one thread to hang on to.
You aren’t suicidal, but your doctor thinks you might be.
Yeah. That.
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Mo
I’m sorry you’re going through this. Believe me, I can relate. I’m dealing with the same thing.
I think Debra hit the nail on the head—I definitely feel more pressure because I don’t have kids. I think I either expect too much of my job/career or I’m expected to care more because I don’t have that outside pressure.
I know it’s hard not to panic, but it’s not worth letting it seep into the rest of your life and ruin the things that are still good. Let me know if you need anything.
xo
magandmoo
Thank you, my dear. It is such a comfort to know you are there for support. xo
Debra
I’m a little concerned that your doctor feels you may be suicidal and yet doesn’t have you under observation. That is worrying.
But I totally get where you’re coming from on the job thing. Some days I can handle it all pretty well and then other days, I go into this panicky state of feeling my life slipping away and what am I doing wasting my precious years on this planet working at a job I don’t love?
Sometimes I wonder if those of us who are single/childfree feel the pressure of our jobs more. Or the pressure to get more from our jobs, I guess. It becomes such a big part of our lives and we spend so much time at it that maybe we place too much importance on it…? I don’t know, I’m still pondering that whole thing.
I’m here if you need to talk. As always. Hope the right door opens for you soon. xoxo
magandmoo
I’m too chicken to be suicidal. And I wouldn’t be so selfish to make my unhappiness my family/friend’s unhappiness. You may be on to something with the childfree theory. I’ll be fine. Just a really REALLY bad day.
Chibi Jeebs
Oh, honey. 😦 I’m so sorry. I know how demoralizing it is to face a job you hate every morning. It’s exhausting. And awful. I ended up taking a job I was sure I’d enjoy (with an old coworker), even though I was extending my commute and effectually taking a pay cut. (That being said, I didn’t miss the part about job hunting.)
Sending you much luck and lots of love.
xoxo
magandmoo
Thank you. I will take the luck and love you are sending.